Halloween 1997

Happy Halloween!

Flashback from 1997!!

Miss Writing!!!

I finally got back my writing groove as of late. I have been going down a spiral and seem like it never stops. I have seem to misplace myself somewhere in Texas. I have been very sad and miserable here. Dogs and cats get run over left and right. Texas people don't know how to drive at all. There is accidents all the time and it just plan slow. People here move to a very slow movement. Damn, I thought Minnesota was really bad. Hell naw, this place is a lot worst. Texas is such a corrupted place and plan & simple rude. Southern Hospitality, my ass!

Where Have I Been???

It's been awhile since I have been on my blog. I truly miss writing altogether. I have been busy running a business half way if that's even possible to a certain extend. The children almost all gone and just have Layla, Zeus and Cairo with me. Is it possible to have a marriage and live seperate from one another? Don't get me wrong its just one do get truly bored with your spouse. I am the kinda of girl who has to keep trying something new and get really bored fast with stupid shit. I want to fly high and make my life meaningful regardless what anyone else thinks anymore. I want to finish first with high honors all the way around my life. I did the single thing, the married thing (a few times already), the raising children thing and the wife thing but it all comes down to being not satisfactory to me at all. I want more out of life for myself. Is that too much to ask for?

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When You Thought Everything Was Finish?

Been in a relationship for 4 years now and over 1 year married of those 4 years. I have gone thru hell and back already and it hasn’t been 10 years even though it sure as hell feels that way. We moved to Texas back in December of 2011 and I think we both regret it very much but at the same time we have learned so much about one another and what makes us tick and how much we both actually love each other. Well, Phoenix realized it when I was getting out of Baby Panther’s truck. The rage and anger that grew in him and the way he kicked that truck made me realize that I figured out what it took to get him to see me…all of me! He notice that he was losing me and I was starting to get back on my own two feet after the battle of love and starting to see other people. Before he didn’t care that I was but until I put that into the actual test; he started to see me in another light and actually this time I flaunt it in his face that I am a good woman and any guy would be lucky to have me. I am loyal and faithful but don’t get me wrong I can also be a BAD GIRL! Since that day, its been pretty good till I finally got to know why we separated and why shit went down the way it did.

I am still reeling from the pain and torture of the lonely nights and painful days, all because of some stupid bitch. Ok, I am truly mad and very pissed off about it still but all because of jealousy and you want something that doesn’t belong to you in the first place. What makes family want to bring you down when you already have enemies for that shit?

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Stories of the Past!

I read this and had to share hope everyone enjoys it as much as I did.

 Ending the Snake Conspiracy...

Our Sister, owner of Shakti Spirit smartly explained last week how the serpent used to be a positive symbol of inner strength, healing and awakening.

It came from the Matriarchal societies of the past, and was, as she said, a symbol favoured by woman healers, among other female authorities who promoted positive leadership.

Knowing this makes it obvious how the paranoid leaders of the new patriarchy deliberately associated the serpent with evil forces when authoring the bible four centuries after Jesus resurrected.

Four centuries of peace and coexistence between female and male priests was destroyed, the bible itself discredited, and so the Christian churches were also discredited.

Even Catholic priests are starting to talk about how the bible was written so long after Jesus was on Earth, birthed by Goddess who appeared in human form as Mother Mary, the brilliantly compassionate woman, who, despite being Goddess, made Her whole life about service to US.

Fortunately, the snake survived as Kundalini in Yoga, a practice that didn’t make its way to the west until long after the paranoid patriarchy began to crumble, and so the snake itself will be resurrected from its false image, as it rises just like Kundalini awakens when we practice Yoga.

Christians see Satan as the manifestation of absolute evil, and if we look at the actions of folks like Hitler, Stalin and those responsible for genocide in Rwanda, where nearly a million people were killed in 100 days, the idea that there is a “devil” can easily be justified.

But the snake is not a symbol of evil...

We see the snake as a symbol of good when we see the snake with the staff on every ambulance and in every hospital in America.

On a lighter note, we see the serpent in the logo of Alfa Romeo, a wonderful Italian automobile with a personality so quirky it is like a living thing, manufactured in one of the most Catholic countries in the world.

Whoever you are, you are beautiful!

Blessed be Goddess, and Blessed be you....

~ Vincent Shanti

My Angry Letter!!!

I'm tired of people (especially the ones who so call say they love me) talking bad about me! You don't want me to talk to your family because I am not good enough to talk to them. You treat me like some whore/prostitute; like a theft or liar but you should watch very closely the one who spreads the rumors because the snake has married your brother Javier. You keep believing in the wrong person. I ...can at least say I never lied to you or cheated on you but I know that there will be someone who loves me and want to be with me. I don't believe in the word family anymore. It has always been me, myself and I! I have always took care of me and my kids without anyone for many years and I have always had my own things and I don't need you to justify or get me things. My middle name has always been "MAKE IT HAPPEN" and my true friends know who I am and that's all that matters. If I don't feel like talking to anyone is because I need time to lick my wounds and get up again because I'm a Rivera-Rosado and I won't be stopped. I'm going to do me!

Messy Life All Over Again!!

You know when you try to play by the book and you follow the rules but it never seems to satisfy no one at all. You run into this subconscious thing in your mind that blocks you from moving forward. I am so tired of re-evaluating everything that went wrong in a relationship except that all I came up with; was I didn’t do anything wrong. I till this day stand by that saying. Another divorce after 3 previous ones takes it toll sooner or later.  Divorce number 4 and I can’t help that I feel like I made the most horrible mistake of getting married to Phoenix, when it should have been Superman. I should of stood by his side thru is darkest days but it as hard to do that with his family being such A-holes all the time to me. Then I had my stupid cousin talking shit about me. That happens when you have family too much in your business. I learned that not having family is the only way to live now. Your own family wants something or another bad to happen to you or jealousy about stupid things. Then there is work. A new job with the most horrible boss and a co-worker who thinks she’s the shit. She didn’t want to show me how to do the job or when I was given a job to do she took away from me to do it herself. I am cool because I don’t need a job where a boss don’t have the balls to call you and speak to you or text you. Makes me think something is totally up. So I moved on as of today. Now I have to deal with Phoenix bullshit about me not having a job again. I am so tired of the bitching and complaining about me. PLEASE STOP BLAMING ME FOR YOUR SHORTCOMINGS!

Superman is out of jail and if and when I step back to MN, he better watch out because Kryptonite is coming!! I can’t help compare him to other guys because he taught me that if someone truly loves you they would spend as much time as they can with you and make time to play not only work. Being married and lonely after not even a year of marriage makes me believe you used me and made me believe you loved me when in reality you never loved me at all. You look into my eyes and lie to me with a straight face and all I can do is stand there. Not anymore. I will walk this time with my head up because I am SEX KITTEN!!!