I have been disappointed a lot like everyone else in life but you can’t always let the bad over ride all the good in life. There are always things like obstacles being thrown in but if it wasn’t for those obstacles life would completely boring.
Today, I couldn’t help but think about Superman. I know that I am having second thoughts about going back with him and what I am actually feeling. I don’t know how I am suppose to move on when I don’t have my feelings straight anymore. I hate the fact that I have mix feelings for him now. Maybe its the fact that I don’t see him everyday on a regular than there is Phoenix who I talk to and would like to get to know more but not sure if I am on the same length wave as him. I feeling like I am holding back and don’t understand why. Maybe I don’t want to be with anyone. I know a lot of guys want to talk to me but I am not feeling any of them. They don’t make my heart skip a beat or excite me in anyway that I want to be with any of them. What the fuck is wrong with me? I can’t be bored of men or can I?
Possibly, I just am so freaking bored of them. They need something new or passion that all they want to do is fuck or bore me to death with there stalkish ways, needy crap or just plan stupidity. So what, I look like I know how to have sex but what makes men think that they can just say that and I would just be like “okay let’s fuck?”
Okay like the other day, I was in Lake Calhoun with some friends and this big black guy which I will call him Extra Desperate Poser. He was trying to be all over me and try (I do mean try) to spit some game that just made him put his own foot in his mouth or should I say ass? EDP was criticizing me how I raise my kids and about my religion/background. On all kinds of bullshit, most of it I just totally ignored him and zoned EDP out so much of it was muffled.
Never ever criticize me about how I raise my kids. Worry about the ones you don’t take care of your damn self. I never had there father helping me to raise them, so therefore I did a good ass job for being underage, pregnant and raising them on my own with no one. So before you open your mouth don’t tell me how to raise children since I have been raising children since I was 10 ( Nieces & Nephews Experiences). Especially if you don’t have none or they don’t live with you at all because of Baby Mama Drama. That’s your first mistake…by not patching that shit up.
What about those jerks that pay child support and figure that is enough to be a father. Well sorry to bust your bubble! But your a damn idiot. Being a father is so much more than a stupid pay check. So much more.
Damn, I sound kind of bitter there huh? Too funny. I am a straight forward person so if you don’t like my comments or opinions than I don’t know what to tell you, but oh, well!
