Holiday Came and Gone Again!!

People look forward to the Holidays but I still trying to find that time where everything is great around the Holidays because my family doesn't come together and rejoice like most families and as the time continues so does the loneliness of the Holidays. You have Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years and not including all in between too. Everyone shopping and cooking a feast and getting drunk or ready to face the family. Either way, it's always drama. Big or small its drama all the time around the Holidays. You try to make everything perfect by cleaning, decorating and cooking but that always goes unseen by people. They may compliment you but it's always the same they forget in just a few minutes. The lights sparkling and the big Christmas tree gleaming in the corner and everyone forgets. They go back to their hell hole and work the next day. Time to make that money you spent these past three or four months. It's just a vicious cycle over and over again. Never stops really. What about the gifts exchange this year I got nothing really. No Happy Birthday (just from my Facebook friends) but no one else that really matters in my everyday life. Sad if you ask me....

New Adventure

Another year and another dollar.

I have been checking out the stock market and especially the binary option this year. There are a lot of scammers and legit software out there too. So I been taking my time and now I am ready to jump in this month. I will be keeping you posted and updated on everything I find out here.

New Adventure

Another year and another dollar.

I have been checking out the stock market and especially the binary option this year. There are a lot of scammers and legit software out there too. So I been taking my time and now I am ready to jump in this month. I will be keeping you posted and updated on everything I find out here.

Questions! Questions!

I always wonder why people have to put you down and treat you like shit. When you already feel like that. Why do people stick around in a fucked up relationship and dont just leave? Is it really that scary? Or they have nowhere to go? What is it that drives people to stay and want to go? When do you get fed up? Well, I don't know the answer to any of these things but it happens everyday in someone's life. I guess; you get use it and that's even so sad really. I know that love fades and you have to work on it. Both of you have to work on it. When love leaves than what do you do? Tell the other partner or just leave to avoid the drama and fights? What is the correct way to break up with someone? That's the question of the year. Something to think about....

Losing Yourself In A Toxic Relationship

It's complicated! Thats what people say but in reality it isn't complicated at all. Being married alot of women lose themselves in a marriage whether a healthy one or toxic. How does one come out of such a hazardous relationship? When you stop loving someone and they cause the pain you live in day in and day out. You turn that pain into a dangerous habit. How do you see the light again and try to stay there? When that partner takes everything away from you. You don't see your family, your children, and your whole sense of being is completely gone. When that person makes you feel less then a person or their partner. What do you do? What about when you start hating yourself and can't stand looking at yourself or even recognize who you are anymore? You get help thats what!! You get help from wherever you can. Its greener on the other side I hope never been there yet. 

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Cinderella Movie 2015

I went this weekend to watch Cinderella with my significant other; which I was a bit shock. It was good and I didn’t expect that at all. I do remember one actor from among all those actors. His name is Nonso Anozie; who does both theater and film work. Besides that he was the only actor that was a minority in the film, which I applaud Disney for but he was a good guy. Now in American where stereo-types go over and beyond that; was very refreshing and New in a good way. I can’t wait to see him in more things after this movie.

Houston Great Roundup My ASS@#$#%$#

Yeah, I am talking against the whole Warrant round up they do in Houston Texas. Money hungry Cowboys!!! First off, Texas don’t give a fuck about no one and don’t care to resolve your Traffic Ticket. They just want money and since they know you about to file around Tax Season that's when they strike like a snake. It’s very nerve racking seeing my neighbors' trip about this all day and night. How they run to pay unless they fight in court but then they drag the court system way, way out…..So I suggest to either fight that ticket or tickets or pay. You could also do time and just sit in jail and keep your money in your pocket. You would only go for like less than 30 days give or take a day. I am posting the flyer so you can read and get more information.

2015 Houston Texas Great Roundup

The enlighten one... Or maybe not!

The way i see it you either got it or you don't. I know you might be like what the hell she talking about?!? Well, spirituality!

I just think you need to find connection with your higher being or high self. Its actually simple. Its all on the faith or your belief of God or Goddess, whichever you preferred. Always listening to the words and hymns are always nice but when you get down to the point its your faith that determines. 

Holiday Romance

I hardly ever criticize the way people celebrate Holidays, since I am a hater for the Holidays, thanks to people like you. I thought this year I will speak about Holiday Romance, with or without?

I could care less, but I would be honestly lying. It starts with Halloween, the holiday of pretending in costumes and going to masquerade parties and off to the eating with the family that we all secretly hate holiday; Thanksgiving. Then Christmas where we are all hypocrites giving gifts to people we really dislike and know for a fact they don't deserve it not even 2%.

In all reality, I am just like you at the end of the day, but wouldn't it be fun, at least spend it with one person that you do love or at least like? That's what I am trying to get at in this blog posting today. Did you know that around the holidays 14% of guys date girls in the winter to have someone spend the holidays with says a poll for men on Cosmopolitan?

Hmm, then I suggest we all go out and find someone we want to really hang out with for the holidays and make your own traditions. Why not? I don't want to get stuck with boring and argumentive family members or people I really dislike. I rather be happy and share my happiness as a gift for the New Year and Christmas.... What do you think?

The Sun Will Shine Again For Me....

When people treat you like shit what are you suppose to do? If i stick up for myself I'm a loud bitch and if I don't say anything then I'm a wimp. Oh, but I will not take it lying down. Watch out!!!

Just when you thought someone couldn’t be any worst…..

Happy Halloween, Kiddies!!! It’s one for the best Holiday of the year besides Christmas and New Years. As you all well know this year has been the worst I have ever had in my whole enter life, if that's even possible to image knowing who I am. I think it’s all what one does as a person in life but I know I am not what all the fucking jealous ass people say that I am. I laugh because they don’t know me at all. So they gossip because they have nothing better to do but talk. I could be in my house all day and they still wagging there tongues. I could be gone for days, weeks, years and they still talk about me. Such hatred from people. That’s why I let only a few by far get close to me. I could truly say that a handful would know me. But on a different note Peace out and have a safe Halloween!!!!

XOXO

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Road Trip 2014

This is going to be the biggest ending for the year of 2014. A road trip that I am looking forward to all year. I won’t spoil your surprise by telling you where I am actually going this year but I will be posting enough pics and map tidbits on Facebook, Foursquare, Instagram, etc. I am excited and can’t wait. I know! I know! I mentioned that I was excited too many times. I would like to hear your suggestions on where to go or who I should go see. I’m open to pretty much everything. Stay tune for all the rage this Fall season. 

When Love Can't Grow Anymore!!!

I have been in Limbo for two years now. I want change! I want to move on! I want to feel myself again whether love, crying, laughing, screaming, dreaming or being determined. When love finishes there just isn't hope to go on. Love needs to be nurtured just has everything else in life is. I do my best to be optimistic but its very hard when that other person refuses to love me. So its time to move on and be with someone that truly loves me.

 

Updated: October 2, 2014

Look for love in all the wrong places. Men like to use just as much as women. You think someone loves you but in reality they don’t. On that sour note; I think moving on and taking time for yourself is what's needed. I think I will take my own advise and leave now.

Bye, Bye

xoxo

Complications of Love!

I know that I am very cynical when it comes to love. I wrote the book on Player & Be Played but I never exposed the other side of love when you are not in control of your heart or head anymore. The overwhelming feelings you get of hatred and hopelessness of everything; whether or not to leave or stay. I usually keep that very private but I don't care anymore and now all I want to do is let go of those very feelings I have and move on. So I complied some steps to move on from "You Didn't Want Him Anyway" by Claire Casey.

1. You are not a failure!
   a) Clean House- This will be the time when you will know who is truly your friends. Bye! Bye!

2. Stop Feeling Failure!
   a) It's not your fault!

3. People are going to say really stupid things and here's what you can do.
   a) That's when you pay attention and start cutting them out your life.

4. If you couldn't work as a couple, you will not work as friends! Move on now!

5. Time doesn't heal! It's what you do with your time that heals.

Halloween 1997

Happy Halloween!

Flashback from 1997!!

Miss Writing!!!

I finally got back my writing groove as of late. I have been going down a spiral and seem like it never stops. I have seem to misplace myself somewhere in Texas. I have been very sad and miserable here. Dogs and cats get run over left and right. Texas people don't know how to drive at all. There is accidents all the time and it just plan slow. People here move to a very slow movement. Damn, I thought Minnesota was really bad. Hell naw, this place is a lot worst. Texas is such a corrupted place and plan & simple rude. Southern Hospitality, my ass!

Where Have I Been???

It's been awhile since I have been on my blog. I truly miss writing altogether. I have been busy running a business half way if that's even possible to a certain extend. The children almost all gone and just have Layla, Zeus and Cairo with me. Is it possible to have a marriage and live seperate from one another? Don't get me wrong its just one do get truly bored with your spouse. I am the kinda of girl who has to keep trying something new and get really bored fast with stupid shit. I want to fly high and make my life meaningful regardless what anyone else thinks anymore. I want to finish first with high honors all the way around my life. I did the single thing, the married thing (a few times already), the raising children thing and the wife thing but it all comes down to being not satisfactory to me at all. I want more out of life for myself. Is that too much to ask for?

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When You Thought Everything Was Finish?

Been in a relationship for 4 years now and over 1 year married of those 4 years. I have gone thru hell and back already and it hasn’t been 10 years even though it sure as hell feels that way. We moved to Texas back in December of 2011 and I think we both regret it very much but at the same time we have learned so much about one another and what makes us tick and how much we both actually love each other. Well, Phoenix realized it when I was getting out of Baby Panther’s truck. The rage and anger that grew in him and the way he kicked that truck made me realize that I figured out what it took to get him to see me…all of me! He notice that he was losing me and I was starting to get back on my own two feet after the battle of love and starting to see other people. Before he didn’t care that I was but until I put that into the actual test; he started to see me in another light and actually this time I flaunt it in his face that I am a good woman and any guy would be lucky to have me. I am loyal and faithful but don’t get me wrong I can also be a BAD GIRL! Since that day, its been pretty good till I finally got to know why we separated and why shit went down the way it did.

I am still reeling from the pain and torture of the lonely nights and painful days, all because of some stupid bitch. Ok, I am truly mad and very pissed off about it still but all because of jealousy and you want something that doesn’t belong to you in the first place. What makes family want to bring you down when you already have enemies for that shit?