“Who says you have to be a virgin to where a white wedding dress? Or that you have to be a prince to marry the princess? Or that the fairy godmother has to carry a wand?”
That just seem like politics to me.
As I sit and watch my friends get married it all seems like a dream to me because I have been married 3 times, that’s right 3 times.
The first with Tony was wonderful, no matter the reasons why we married; I called him back in 2007 and he was happy to hear from me and he told me he still loved me no matter what. I was only 19 (he was 24) and I think I was not too ready to settle down or just wanted him because I could. That’s a pride thing… You wouldn’t understand it.
Now, my second marriage lasted a little longer as for 2 years and Henry was okay but he was younger than me; he was 19 and I was 26, when we got married. Now you see the pattern going on here, I do very clearly. We don’t speak at all and I saw him a few years back walking into a pawn shop but never spoke to him. Besides, he slept with my close friend at the time on my birthday. If that wasn’t a deal breaker than what is? That was a terrible divorce but a grand learning experience.
Than there was the third one, Julian. The rebound marriage. If that is even possible. I was talking to him while I was divorcing Henry. I didn’t know what I was getting myself into when I married him. I didn’t let myself get over the breakup/divorce. I just basically jumped into another marriage without the thinking how it will hurt me in the long run. This time it only lasted 1 year of marriage but was together 1 year before.
Going through all of this when I finally met Tone, I was going through the same cycle that he broke up with me and I was on overload of emotions that I got really depressed and sick for months and months from jumping through relationships. These are not even including my kids father. So, you can imagine bouncing back from those situations that by my choice I stay single to get to know me. Yes, I will date but I am not in a serious relationship and I definitely don’t take guys serious anymore. I have learned new and still apply the old rules of dating and relationship rules.
The main advice from all of this is: “Take your time, there is no rush to be in a relationship that will go nowhere. You must love yourself before loving the next person. It’s okay to be single and don’t let your family or friends rush you neither. You will find a way to get out of the rut sooner or later.” –Sex Kitten 
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