Love With Yourself

Okay! I know the title seems weird but it is what it is! I haven’t been really excited in a very long time and I really was excited to hear that my favorite band is coming to Minneapolis. I can’t believe that Wisin & Yandel will be here. I am going and I am a little sad because Superman has to miss it but I promise to record it for him. I feel like all those emails and letters I wrote to Yandel has reached him and I’m thankful my prayers have been heard. I look so forward to seeing them. This is one concert I will not miss.

Besides that, I have been on my own without Superman. I know that I keep in close contact with him more than his own family but that's okay to me. I have been trying to be strong but I took a trip to Wisconsin just recently and I was taken back by the beautiful scenery and the people. I just met a new guy and I will call him Phoenix. He has been a total gentleman with me. Not trying to get into my pants or anything like that. Just fun! I actually thought something may be wrong but no it was that I expect guys to always behave like pigs but I may have scared him a little. I try my best not too be too clingy or to call all the time. I am actually not a phone person. I prefer emails, text or IMs to phone calls. My friend Natalie says that it maybe that I have social anxiety; something call agoraphobic. Well, I was researching that word and it was like déjà vu or something like that. It means a morbid fear of open spaces, people (Strangers), and other things. I don’t like to be in the public too much but I do my best by going with people I am close with or my dog, Cairo. I don’t like being caught in a public place with too many people (Strangers)  because I get some kind of anxiety and I freak out. Superman would always hold my hand to comfort me, touch me in public places to keep my mind off the people or just have a conversation with me when I rode the bus with him. Superman was trying to get me in the habit of being around people but I just can’t seem to do it. Now, Phoenix is totally different but he knows I like privacy and comfortable being in a quite place with no one around.

Now how all this is related is that I have a concert in the Target Center in Minneapolis and I know that thousands of people will be there. I have to figure out away to go without getting social anxiety. I really love Wisin & Yandel. I made it to a Ricky Martin, Matchbox Twenty and all of Rob Thomas concerts than I should be able to attend their concert. Maybe I will go with the kids or a friend. Stay tune…..

I got confidence, baby!!!

On a daily bases, everyone always ask me what’s behind my name “Sex Kitten”. Well for starters, no it doesn’t mean I love sex or that it’s even all about sex. Do anyone out there read Cosmopolitan? Well, its defined differently per person. As for me it stands for sex appeal and confidence. I have both and I know when to use it. Every lady knows that they must find there notch on how to bring confidence to themselves. For me, it’s always been music; especially the kind that is dance or rock with an attitude. I work hard to be confidence but I also be myself.  It’s all in your mind there is such thing as mind power. Just think confidence and what confidence means too you. Your clothes is always apart of that too. I am reserved dresser but I also know when to switch the heat on. If I am on a business meeting, I stay sexy but casual, or if I am going out with friends I go all the way casual with tee-shirt and jeans with flip flops. Now, on a date that’s very different. I get dress up but I also try to find out where. If it’s a surprise, just go with your instinct dress up but not too fancy. I love stiletto heels and boots. I learned a lot from my favorite magazine Cosmopolitan. I have been reading it for 20 plus years now. I love everything about the magazine, from fashion to the articles.

Tragic Love!!!

I have had relationships before, that were wrong for me and ones that I may have never recovered from but life is all about learning and how you plan on using that lesson in your relationships. I know now what I want in a man, how I want to be treated and the type of love I hunger for. I want to feel loved and I don’t believe a relationship is all about the sex. I think people need to grow up a little bit more and realize that being with someone is more than having sex. How do you connect on a intelligence level? How do you solve problems together? Do you talk about nothing or anything? Couples should feel connected with one another and have a sense of respect and love for one another. It cannot be a one way street. I am working on my Relationships Part 2. I should be posting it this week. Keep checking back.

"The course of true love never did run smooth." - William Shakespeare (1564-1616)

Still Not Over You by Rob Thomas/Gravity by Sara Bareilles

        I just hate it when you miss some one so much. What I miss about Superman was that undying attention and love he gave me. I was everything to him and I never felt like that with anyone else. It wasn’t about the sex or the romance it was that he actually took care of me like no other man not even my ex-husbands or baby daddies. He wouldn’t let me do anything, he would clean up and cook, when I didn’t feel like it (that was rare) and he would always walk with me even to the corner and back to make sure I was okay; like a bodyguard.

        No, it was a pull of gravity to each others personality and soul. I can calm his temper and he can make me see reason or let me vent and actually left me alone to sort out my feelings. He never hover or brood me down. He let me own my actions and never scold me like a child when I was wrong. He always asked me why I did what I did. I just explained and no matter what my answer was he would defend me even when I was wrong and Superman would do it with such conviction and would lay his life for me (I have only met two men in my entire life that was like this). He would never let anyone disrespect me or put a hand on me. I miss his laughter, the way we always took walks with the dogs and how we cooked dinner. The way he washed my hair and brushed. I was so cherished and felt secure with Superman.

        

No one can replace the way he put me on a petal stall and actually cared for me. He made me feel safe and loved, like a porcelain doll. I don’t care who will read this anymore I want my feelings to be known and you don’t need to understand them. I feel like guys only want to get laid and I am not ready or even down with that bullshit.       

I keep his letters by my bed along with his picture and I know he will come back home when he his done with his business. I been living like there is nothing to loose and I am not over him and I can’t find a replacement. I know no one can replace someone else but I will pull myself together and I will run to him no matter what and I will breathe him into me. I will love him and he will know it. I will tell him everyday in a letter, phone call or even by the way I will kiss him. He will know and I will never look back no matter what anyone says anymore. I know now that I will never find a love like that anymore. So I will wait for him because he will be back in nine months. I will be strong for both of us, the kids and the dogs.

P.S. I love you, Superman and no matter what people say about you; I know its out of jealousy that they talk and not out of love for me or you. Remember that I love you unconditional bad boy side and your geeky side. XOXOXOXOX! And don’t you forget it!!!

Is being crazy the new normal?

As everyone knows I am writing a book about the life of a sociopath. I have been reading about diagnosis and how they may be relevant to the background of a sociopath. I am not a doctor so this would be truly on my own research and belief. This book is a biography of a friend of mines. I am enjoying doing all the storytelling and investigating the possible mental illness that may associate with a  sociopath. I am going to interview a couple of doctors, psychiatrist and other specialists in this area of mental illness. I expect to get the pros and cons of what a sociopath could possible have and have not. I may even get to interview a real-life serial killer who was at first a sociopath and turned serial killer later. I will keep you posted on my finds but you have to buy the book when it comes out because I will be going into more details. I have so many questions and I hope to find all the answers too. Subjects like theses are all skepticism and difficult to understand because there is no cure for sociopaths, since I am researching maybe I can come up with an idea or two. I will keep you all posted.

Outrage for the Homeless Families

This letter is from an anonymous family, who stood in a shelter in Minneapolis called Mary’s Place/Sharing & Caring Hands:

To Whom It May Concern:

My family has been homeless for about 8 months. I live in a place called Mary’s Place, which is run by a ex-nun. During the winter, it was fine since it was really cold outside but as the summer was kicking in and it was getting really hot outside, she had ordered the workers to only keep the AC on only downstairs for when visitors came or officials. They are not allowed upstairs on neither floors. So, they wouldn’t even know that it was burning up in our rooms, especially at night. My baby would cry from the heat and my asthma would always kick in. We can’t even leave to the hospital in an emergency out of fear of getting kicked out. What should I do? She is starting to kick out all of the Hispanic families and she only wants the Somalians here. Mary Jo should help Americans first than out stretch your hands to others. We need much help too. I see where everyone gets mad about immigrants who come here, but I have to remember they come here on falsehood. That’s even worst.

Anonymous

P.S. Can you please help past the word around and tell all Homeless families that they are not alone anymore.

 

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Come Correct If You Want to Talk To Girls!!!

Here are some basic and very easy rules for guys to follow to courting or dating your new girl:

1. Do not text girls with boring little childish remarks like “Hey” every freak in 5 minutes, especially when they don’t answer the first time. Has it occur to you that maybe she actually is busy and have a real life or job.
2. No jealousy please. Woman actually don’t find that very cute. It gets very old and boring really fast.
3. If you invite her for a date, please be courteous and pay. If she offers to pay it can go both ways either it’s a sign that she may not be that into you or she wants to show you her independent side. Take a hint, watch body movements and come up with a plan b and don’t give up to easily but don’t be all in her face neither. Suave is so much better.
4. Be a man when it’s time to be a man. Don’t call her phone and if her teenage son answers and you say “you have the wrong number” and hang up on him. Trust me she would have your number saved on her phone and you just made a complete fool of yourself. Not to mention that teenager would actually make you look bad. You try to win them too not just there mommy. If a guy does answer the phone it maybe a test to see if you actually have guts and not a chicken-shit. Just ask for her. It may so be a brother she has.
5. Always have two different plans in case she doesn’t want to do movie and a dinner, be fun. This is too show how fun you can be and how you will interact with one another.

Relationships (Part One)

I believe all relationships should have love, respect and good communication not great just good. That you know when to give and receive. That you know how to shut up and just listen. Do the stop and drop and sit, ha ha ha ha! Compromise is a key in relationships. I don’t believe in Mr. Perfect as everyone knows they don’t exist. I have yet to meet one. I do believe in Mr. Right Now the one who is willing to actually do some or his part in your relationship. There is no such thing as a perfect marriage or relationship of any kind. Without a little disagreements once in awhile you will have the most boring relationship. Arguments are to be seen as how you both solve problems together or apart sometimes and how you grow into a couple together.

There is no actual formula for couples because everyone is different and unique in its own way. I assure you that you have to work for love and to keep that love. Doing things apart and together in a healthy balance is always recommended. You should always be in tune with one another to help each other through life and needs. Trying to understand each other is part of being in a relationship. Now lets get into the sex in a relationship. You don’t necessarily have to have a great sex  partner. It doesn’t matter how big or small he his, its the way he uses it or how you teach him if his willing to please you both by learning. It doesn’t mean he is incapable of it. I truly believe some women lack in there responsibilities. Its a two-way street in sex. Women need to do there part by teaching about sex to men. How will they know what satisfy us if they are not taught?