Love With Yourself

Okay! I know the title seems weird but it is what it is! I haven’t been really excited in a very long time and I really was excited to hear that my favorite band is coming to Minneapolis. I can’t believe that Wisin & Yandel will be here. I am going and I am a little sad because Superman has to miss it but I promise to record it for him. I feel like all those emails and letters I wrote to Yandel has reached him and I’m thankful my prayers have been heard. I look so forward to seeing them. This is one concert I will not miss.

Besides that, I have been on my own without Superman. I know that I keep in close contact with him more than his own family but that's okay to me. I have been trying to be strong but I took a trip to Wisconsin just recently and I was taken back by the beautiful scenery and the people. I just met a new guy and I will call him Phoenix. He has been a total gentleman with me. Not trying to get into my pants or anything like that. Just fun! I actually thought something may be wrong but no it was that I expect guys to always behave like pigs but I may have scared him a little. I try my best not too be too clingy or to call all the time. I am actually not a phone person. I prefer emails, text or IMs to phone calls. My friend Natalie says that it maybe that I have social anxiety; something call agoraphobic. Well, I was researching that word and it was like déjà vu or something like that. It means a morbid fear of open spaces, people (Strangers), and other things. I don’t like to be in the public too much but I do my best by going with people I am close with or my dog, Cairo. I don’t like being caught in a public place with too many people (Strangers)  because I get some kind of anxiety and I freak out. Superman would always hold my hand to comfort me, touch me in public places to keep my mind off the people or just have a conversation with me when I rode the bus with him. Superman was trying to get me in the habit of being around people but I just can’t seem to do it. Now, Phoenix is totally different but he knows I like privacy and comfortable being in a quite place with no one around.

Now how all this is related is that I have a concert in the Target Center in Minneapolis and I know that thousands of people will be there. I have to figure out away to go without getting social anxiety. I really love Wisin & Yandel. I made it to a Ricky Martin, Matchbox Twenty and all of Rob Thomas concerts than I should be able to attend their concert. Maybe I will go with the kids or a friend. Stay tune…..