Animal Instinct, I Think???

I was watching an episode of CSI: Las Vegas about a group of people who dress in animal suit and was actually weird out. I was not expecting that to even come up. What people are into now a days, hhmmm?

That Midnight Drunk Call!!!

You already know when you get one of those waking calls at midnight or 1 in the morning, it’s either because someone is in the hospital, you have a drunk ex-boyfriend or just a friend that is drunk and maybe desperate? Well, this one call was very unusual in it; that I was awaken and caught off guard a couple of times. Now, anyone that truly knows me, knows that I hardly get caught off guard. So let me get back to what happen yesterday. All day I was home chilling reading a book and watching TV. I really didn’t feeling like going anywhere but I was okay with that. I got numerous calls and there is always one that sticks out. I was half dreaming and half up in some twisted dream. So, when I got “the call” from Desperate I was kind of glad he called. I don’t normally talk to him much but when I do its always interesting conversation. Lana called earlier to warn me of the call but I didn’t pay much attention to it besides that call I didn’t get until much later. The conversation was extremely good at first until Desperate mentioned Superman. I am not too keen on the fact that he did mention him a couple of times but that I would be ask to do something that I may or may not regret later. I usually don’t just hook up with guy friends because it always go wrong. It just does. Someone always have there heart in it, and usually its not me. I have this big wall around my heart that only rare men get in like Superman, Panther, Buck and Black.

“What they all have in common besides me, is that being my boyfriend they knew they will be on the most bumpiest ride of their life that will make them either surrender their souls or hearts or both to me. They were okay with that because to love me, you have to be in it for the long haul. I don’t think every man is capable of doing that. When they don’t surrender, some just turn a little psycho and that’s not cool…” –Sex Kitten

Love With Yourself

Okay! I know the title seems weird but it is what it is! I haven’t been really excited in a very long time and I really was excited to hear that my favorite band is coming to Minneapolis. I can’t believe that Wisin & Yandel will be here. I am going and I am a little sad because Superman has to miss it but I promise to record it for him. I feel like all those emails and letters I wrote to Yandel has reached him and I’m thankful my prayers have been heard. I look so forward to seeing them. This is one concert I will not miss.

Besides that, I have been on my own without Superman. I know that I keep in close contact with him more than his own family but that's okay to me. I have been trying to be strong but I took a trip to Wisconsin just recently and I was taken back by the beautiful scenery and the people. I just met a new guy and I will call him Phoenix. He has been a total gentleman with me. Not trying to get into my pants or anything like that. Just fun! I actually thought something may be wrong but no it was that I expect guys to always behave like pigs but I may have scared him a little. I try my best not too be too clingy or to call all the time. I am actually not a phone person. I prefer emails, text or IMs to phone calls. My friend Natalie says that it maybe that I have social anxiety; something call agoraphobic. Well, I was researching that word and it was like déjà vu or something like that. It means a morbid fear of open spaces, people (Strangers), and other things. I don’t like to be in the public too much but I do my best by going with people I am close with or my dog, Cairo. I don’t like being caught in a public place with too many people (Strangers)  because I get some kind of anxiety and I freak out. Superman would always hold my hand to comfort me, touch me in public places to keep my mind off the people or just have a conversation with me when I rode the bus with him. Superman was trying to get me in the habit of being around people but I just can’t seem to do it. Now, Phoenix is totally different but he knows I like privacy and comfortable being in a quite place with no one around.

Now how all this is related is that I have a concert in the Target Center in Minneapolis and I know that thousands of people will be there. I have to figure out away to go without getting social anxiety. I really love Wisin & Yandel. I made it to a Ricky Martin, Matchbox Twenty and all of Rob Thomas concerts than I should be able to attend their concert. Maybe I will go with the kids or a friend. Stay tune…..