The Way One Feels

Sometimes, I wonder how I got to this point in life right now. I just feel like I am going thru the motions over and over again. People ask me all the time how I do this, how I come to where I am today or what makes me be the way I am? Well damn, that would take awhole book to reveal that or someone who was an actual expert in Psychology. It just happens when you get stuck in a rut for so long. I sometimes wonder mysel how I got this far in life myself, but I am here and I need to figure out what I need to do from this point on to get back on track. I love to good life as much as the next person but too much of it isn't good neither.

Kissing

Have you ever felt that kiss that rocked your core or made your soul quiever? The kind you will never forget for as long as you live? Well, can you believe that it does happen for real? I can honestly testify that it does happen.

Back in 1992-1993, only one man has ever done that to me not one person has ever done that or came close to it. The way you knew it was meant to be when he kissed you. Like you are suppose to be together no matter what, but sometimes I wonder why I don't go running back to him even through we talk and stay in communication for years since my childhood. It's weird to me and I may want to investigate that more. Any ideas people? Oh, don't ask me to give up names I won't......

Secret Sex! Do We Really Have Them?

I was just watching an older episode of Sex in the City, which by the way I got a lot of silly ideas about secret partners and sex. I by no means am an expect on men but I do have common sense and intuition that saves the day. It seems that till this day we have sex with people that are so ugly but have the most wonderful sex that we are so ashamed to introduce them to friends and family. I know everyone has gone that path once in their lives. I personally have had done that one or maybe twice. I was so young that I don't remember  with whom or where but it had happen. I couldn't even tell you there names because they where so freaken ugly that I couldn't associate them with anything not even the great sex. I know that you can easily find your self in a situation like that but what runs through mind and what do you tell your self? I wonder whatever happen to those people too. It's amazing the things you think of sometimes.

Adopting Pets

Over my business trip to Florida with my hubby, when I got some news feed from my friends on Facebook about a puppy who was about to get put down with the rest of her siblings. The picture haunted me my whole ride in the airplane. I talked to my husband Phoenix about it the whole ride there. He was like write to Denise Williams at the Lakeland Animal Shelter and find out what we need to do to adopt her. My hubby won my heart right there and then forever. I fell in love with Layla and she has been a real joy in my family's life.

Immortality

This was the big word today. "Immortality" and I have heard it 4 times today of all days.
The day when I was think of death. No, I am not scared of dying but the way someone dies is what gives off the scary feelings. No one can stay immortal; only our souls. I always wonder where we go after death. Immortality to me seems too long to even comprehen with the universe. If vampires have immortality why is it that we can kill them. Why not call them something else like always young or something more to there nature?

The "F" Buddy

I know! I Know! But you can't help but look at this person and ask yourself "What If?" Let me back up alittle, I know that there has been a guy in a girls world that you just couldn't see yourself with them but had the most wonderful sex but he was the most boring ass person in the world. You know exactly who I am talking about. The guy who you can't seem to be in a relationship with. I think it goes for relationships too.

Now let's talk about being with a person where the sex isn't all that great but the mental part is the most sweeties. Aaahhhh! You know who I am talking about that guy whose laying right next to you right now. I seem to figure out that you need to work hard in a relationship like that because you apparently can't have both.

You ask me how? I'll tell you how. In a relationship, you need to was keep it fresh; imagine or fantasy on what you would like to do. Be for warn nothing too freaky. Some guys will get totally freaked out by this. Keep tasteful and simple. You can never go wrong with that for a starters until both are ready to go to the next level. Figure out what he likes or what his into. Remember keep it simple. You don't want to scare him off. Try taking a shower or bath together, candles, slow music unless your trying to do a quicky than go for fast music. I'm pretty sure you go the idea. Now run off and go have sex with that special someone, who says you can't have wonderful sex and mind blowing comversation.

If you like please post any suggests to other readers to try. Thank you!

Teens and Sex!

Teens and sex goes hand in hand with growing up. I give thanks to the Almight that I have a nice relationship with my teens. We talk about everything and they know that my doors are open no matter what. I think if parents start losing communication with there children at an earlier age there maybe no hope later. It's hard to change minds of teens. They believe that the world evolves around them but in reality it doesn't and if you try to teach them that they go on a defensive and there is no going around that. I believe that if you try to keep your relationship with your children from a very young age and actually listen to them they can surprise you; when its time to tell you something important, they know you wouldn't judge them or lecture them but even if you flip out they know you will but will come around and help them figure it out. Don't give them the answers they need to learn from there own experiences. Let's not play stupid but actually get smart about sex.You already know that teens are going to have sex whether you like it or not. The more you tell them no, the more they are going to do it. Instead of forbidin it; you should at least talk to them about safe sex, STDs and Preventing pregnancy and to tell females that no matter what your partner says always where condoms or no sex. Make them promise that to you but more to them to keep smart and safe.

Bottom line: To have sex make sure they are ready to except that adult responsibility. 

Infamous as can be!!!!

I walk into a room and boom everyone gets quite. I say to myself  am I wearing my dress or shirt backwards? Well, apparently I am not its just that everyone in that is staring at me. But why? I not anyone famous like Angelina Jolie or Brittney Spears. I know all kinds of people. I go back home and everyone knows me and my family. Some people think its my sex apppeal or that I am known as Sex Kitten. Either way I don't understand why people treat me like that at all. It makes me feel alittle uneasy. You just have people was talking about you or spreading rumors. Its just weird to me. What do you think?

The Biggest Thing

I have been doing research on the new ipads and tablets. I have settled for the Samsung Galaxy Tab. I love it so far. Stay tune for updates on this tab and the applications I will be tedting on it.

We Need A Resolution and I Found One!!!

I can’t deal with people all in my business than got the nerve to say shit that is not there information to tell others or lies. So, I just ignore them and don’t give out anymore information to anyone but the person that matters ME! Stop asking me questions that has nothing to do with you but if you need to ask, ASK PHOENIX and see what he will tell you. I know for a fact he will tell you to mind your business unless you got something in it for you. My life is my life back off already!

I am tired of my mother telling me I am fat or make my fiancé think that I am cheating on him to make him leave me for her bullshit. I will never leave him unless he cheats on me or I don’t love him anymore. She had the nerve to tell him that I had a lot of Phoenix that I was schizophrenic, had a lot of guys and that I can’t have kids at all when I have 4 kids of my own. She commented that when I was planning my wedding if I was planning for a Sweet 16 party. How rude and disrespectful? I haven’t been with a lot of guys, so where that came from I have no clue. My mom has no room to talk, how would she know, she was never with me?! Was she trying to say I had some sickness because I was with a lot of guys? Or WTF?!?!? I have been nothing but patient and loving daughter to her. I could even throw back a boulder because she was in her 40’s when she was Angel who was only 15 years old, for 3 years. I never ever robbed a cradle and never would out of respect for myself and children. Why would she talk bad about me who knows; but I do know that she is jealous of her own daughter and she can’t stand me being happy at all. I am over it and I am totally fine with her not being a part of my life or my children’s life.

When someone throws you a lemon…Just Don’t Sit There! Throw it BACK!!

I miss you guys already! It’s been a long time since I have been on my baby. Yes, this blog is my favorite baby. I haven’t had time to become creative in a few months with all the crap I have going on such as official opening my business, taking care of mom, planning an engagement party and a wedding. I have so many mix emotions with all the things going on. Here goes:

1. Unlimited Legal Services, LLC This is my company official website. So check it out and please let me know what you honestly think. I would really like the feedback the site.

2. Mom- What can I say?

3. Engagement Party- Date and location Coming Soon!

4. Wedding- I don’t know what I really want to do about this. You guys already know how I actually feel about this whole thing. Sometimes, I catch myself still thinking of Superman. WTF?!?!?

5. College- Yeah! I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking going back right now knowing that my family doesn’t allow me personal time, let alone study time.

6. Kids- Actually, Josh is doing really well except he doesn’t like school but I knew that already, Desi is doing very well compared to last summer and Khriz is another case all together. I sometimes get too frustrated with him specifically.

I sometimes wish to fly away and never come back or at least not right away. I would totally miss my crazy family.

Long Gone By Now….

   Hey Everyone! I haven’t written in my blog in awhile and I totally miss it. Let’s see I have been reconstructing one company and building another from the ground up again. It’s going pretty well so far. I like the new way how we are reconstructing Sinister Media Corp and Angel Juice Records right now. I will try my best to update you guys. I know that a lot of people are sending over demos and I will be getting to them hopefully in less than 3 weeks. I have Black in New Jersey reviewing them right now but if you are looking for a respond soon it would be until 3 weeks. I have a wedding to plan and other things coming up right now.

  On another note, I am hiring currently in my legal services company currently and hoping to advertise some more this week and next. I am trying to get the word out and here you can check the website out: Unlimited Legal Services, LLC and let me know what you guys think of the place.