When Love Can't Grow Anymore!!!

I have been in Limbo for two years now. I want change! I want to move on! I want to feel myself again whether love, crying, laughing, screaming, dreaming or being determined. When love finishes there just isn't hope to go on. Love needs to be nurtured just has everything else in life is. I do my best to be optimistic but its very hard when that other person refuses to love me. So its time to move on and be with someone that truly loves me.

 

Updated: October 2, 2014

Look for love in all the wrong places. Men like to use just as much as women. You think someone loves you but in reality they don’t. On that sour note; I think moving on and taking time for yourself is what's needed. I think I will take my own advise and leave now.

Bye, Bye

xoxo

Complications of Love!

I know that I am very cynical when it comes to love. I wrote the book on Player & Be Played but I never exposed the other side of love when you are not in control of your heart or head anymore. The overwhelming feelings you get of hatred and hopelessness of everything; whether or not to leave or stay. I usually keep that very private but I don't care anymore and now all I want to do is let go of those very feelings I have and move on. So I complied some steps to move on from "You Didn't Want Him Anyway" by Claire Casey.

1. You are not a failure!
   a) Clean House- This will be the time when you will know who is truly your friends. Bye! Bye!

2. Stop Feeling Failure!
   a) It's not your fault!

3. People are going to say really stupid things and here's what you can do.
   a) That's when you pay attention and start cutting them out your life.

4. If you couldn't work as a couple, you will not work as friends! Move on now!

5. Time doesn't heal! It's what you do with your time that heals.

Halloween 1997

Happy Halloween!

Flashback from 1997!!

Miss Writing!!!

I finally got back my writing groove as of late. I have been going down a spiral and seem like it never stops. I have seem to misplace myself somewhere in Texas. I have been very sad and miserable here. Dogs and cats get run over left and right. Texas people don't know how to drive at all. There is accidents all the time and it just plan slow. People here move to a very slow movement. Damn, I thought Minnesota was really bad. Hell naw, this place is a lot worst. Texas is such a corrupted place and plan & simple rude. Southern Hospitality, my ass!

Where Have I Been???

It's been awhile since I have been on my blog. I truly miss writing altogether. I have been busy running a business half way if that's even possible to a certain extend. The children almost all gone and just have Layla, Zeus and Cairo with me. Is it possible to have a marriage and live seperate from one another? Don't get me wrong its just one do get truly bored with your spouse. I am the kinda of girl who has to keep trying something new and get really bored fast with stupid shit. I want to fly high and make my life meaningful regardless what anyone else thinks anymore. I want to finish first with high honors all the way around my life. I did the single thing, the married thing (a few times already), the raising children thing and the wife thing but it all comes down to being not satisfactory to me at all. I want more out of life for myself. Is that too much to ask for?